High Functioning Anxiety 3

It’s Wednesday. Blargh. Really don’t feel like blogging today. I don’t feel like doing much of anything. I’m overwhelmed.

Taking three classes

Teaching one (TA)

Supervising masters level therapists

Running a personal growth group

Have a graduate assistantship

Should be trying to make plans for my dissertation

Should be turning my master’s thesis into an article

Part time job at a drug an alcohol rehab center

 

It’s enough to make my head spin and just make me want to stay in bed. But I went to the DMV today to renew my license, went grocery shopping, sent a slew of emails I needed to send, prepped for my supervision sessions tomorrow… but I still don’t feel like I’ve done anything. I’m afraid of looking at my “in progress” article. Writing is just so brutal, whether creative or academic. You get rejected so many times and you start to think all your hard work goes to waste. I’ve had a couple things published, both academic and creative, but I don’t know. It never feels like “enough” it just feels like “finally” for the amount of time and effort I put in.  I feel so pressed for time, I literally have to stop and say, ok, what is worth my time today? Sigh. I don’t like living like this, and I know it won’t be forever, but it’s maddening. On top of that I’d like to get into better shape and work on feeling better about myself, but that always seems to fall by the wayside in the throws of the semester. I’m going to try not to let it.

I did also make a youtube video ranting about Logan Paul… so that’s cool, I guess.

 

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