I’ve been trying to keep up with blogging personally once a week but it’s really hard. The semester of me teaching my first master’s class independently is winding down and I’m gearing up to teach a truncated sexuality class. It will be awesome, but I still have a lot of prepping to do and it’s weighing me down.
I know everyone has to be “new” sometimes, but it’s hard to not feel as though students would have a better experience with someone who has been teaching for 20 years. I’m trying to reframe it as “different” rather than better, but on days that I’m overwhelmed and stressed out it’s hard. I do try to make things interesting and am open to feedback, but sometimes I’m just so tired I don’t want to think about anything and I can’t wait until I move South. I’ll be able to be outside comfortably more days out of the year with hopefully more sun.
It’s hard to find classroom activities that everyone will enjoy as a new instructor. I’m grateful for all the opportunities that have recently come my way, but sometimes I worry that I’m just taking on way too much and I should focus more on just my dissertation. But I can only do a couple hours on that each day before going insane. Plus I need to make money. Sigh.
If anyone has new instructor tips, please let me know. I feel like my students enjoy my style well enough, but I often feel like I’m flailing around.