I’m going to try to keep this mostly positive. I have come so far in what I am able to do. I’m no longer completely terrified of making mistakes. I care less about if people think badly of me. If someone doesn’t give me the time of day then I don’t need them in my life.
I’ve been trying to take better care of myself, being direct and saying what I like and don’t like. It was hard at first but it’s so much easier just saying no when I want to versus saying yes for someone else’s sake when I don’t want to. It would make me sick and I refuse to do that anymore.
It was quiet today. Fog rolled through the fields near my house. I actually didn’t mind the cloudiness. It was beautiful to me even though there was no sun. The creek sounded like a river and I sat and just listened for a long time. I’m getting back to myself.