Dissertation writing can be so isolating. I always chide myself for not tying harder to stay in touch with my cohort, but people grow apart everyone has their own lives. Also, in the back of my mind I often think people are sick of me anyway. lol.
I should be done with my dissertation by spring or summer and the prospect of grading final papers for the semester and job searching is overwhelming me. I know my CV is good but so is a lot of other people’s. Sigh. I’m just getting into my role as an instructor/professor and it’s hard to know that I’m competing with people too when this is still so new for me.
And dissertation editing can make you feel like you’re crazy and you don’t know what you’re taking about anymore. Lol. I’ve gotten to that being recently when you go down the rabbit hole of reading research and aren’t sure what is relevant for your study anymore. Lol. Sigh.
But I am going to try to force myself to relax and actually give myself a break and creative outlet become next semester starts. Maybe I’ll make jewelry. Read. Work with clay. Dance. Hopefully I’ll creatively write and start some projects I’ve wanted to work on for a while. We’ll see. I also need time to do nothing. Lol