Can you spot the feesh?



I’ll give you a hint… there’s two 🙂


I’ve started class prepping for the upcoming semester. That should help to quell my anxiety when my class starts at the end of the month. I also plan to reward myself with a trip to the sea/Galapagos when I finish my PhD. Do you reward yourself with travel? Or something else? Most of my extra money goes to travel… or my makeup collection that I never use :X

Guilty as charged.

Anyhow, there is nowhere on Earth that shows me I am “part of” more than the sea. Some people feel out of place in the middle of the water… do you? I never have. Ever since I was 3 I’ve been swimming and have absolutely loved it.  Swimming in the sea (not pools) is a sort of spiritual experience for me. It’s not just a vacation. I get super protective of my time there.

I have to be out in the water. 

It’s torture for me to see it but not be in it. Do you have any experiences like that? When you are so drawn to something it’s almost painful to be away? I get like this urgency to go the sea usually every Winter.

When I’m there, I’ll willingly get up at 6 am every day to be out and see the critters undisturbed before anyone else gets there. (yes that’s when sharks feed, but I still have all my limbs so whatevs…)  😉

If you haven’t experienced something so awe-inspiring or all-encompassing, I pray that you do. That you get to experience feeling small on this vast Earth and yet still know down to the very core of your being that you are a welcome part of it.


Much love


~*~ Natalie ~*~

9 thoughts on “Can you spot the feesh?

  1. Wow, I’ve now read your post. That is really fascinating how you describe your relationship with the sea, that is very unusual.

    The language you used “have to be in the sea” reminded me so much of a podcast episode I listened to recently, about autistic savants. They basically have one specific thing that they have to do, have naturally been good at, and have got better at simply by having to do it.

    It makes sense to me that, if you’re a sensitive person, the all-encompassing sensory experience of being in the sea might be attractive. Either that, or the opposite! It’s truly telling that you STILL go in the sea, even at shark feeding time. You really do have a need to be in the sea! I’m happy that you live in a location where you’re able to do that.

    I’m always torn with the sea, because I feel fear at the depth, not knowing what’s under the surface, and the power of nature/the sea to put me in danger! What’s your PhD in?

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    1. Thanks for your comment! I do tend to be unusual. Lol and I’ve actually had a few people suggest I might be on the high functioning end of the autism spectrum. I suppose I could see that for a variety of reasons. 😂

      Alas I live in Pittsburgh. Not much sea around, but I am lucky enough to be able to go usually once a year 😬

      When I can’t go to the sea, hiking near water and swimming in lakes sometimes gets me through. Lol. Or swimming laps fervently, like in the Mr Rogers movie.

      I tend to get fearful when the water isn’t clear, but I’ll still swim. I did actually come very close to a sting ray once when I couldn’t see well. Lol. Yikes.

      My PhD will be in Counselor Education and Supervision. I already have a masters in counseling and am licensed to do therapy/diagnose. 🙂

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      1. Wow! You may benefit from learning about autism more. I’m the same.

        I saw you mention in another post about deciding you should move closer to the sea (I think) – I’d agree on that!

        Haha, I haven’t seen that movie, but I know what you mean about the laps. Fervently… yes! Get it all out.

        Wow, scary encounter with the sting ray! Where was the picture taken?

        That sounds awesome and very worthwhile, good luck with the PhD!

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      2. Yeah, I really plan to look into it more.

        And it’ll definitely be a long term goal of mine to move by the sea. The picture in this post was taken around the Turneffe atolls off the coast of Belize. One of my favorite places in the world 🙂

        Many thanks! I hope to be done this year.


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