Quarantine Day 11

Today was weird. It wasn’t until after 1 pm that I looked up anything about the virus. I kind of feel guilty about that in a way? But I also think it was good for my mental health. I was working to transition my master’s counseling course this semester to an online format, engaging with a few students via email, and then realized that the virus hadn’t really crossed my mind. I felt so well-rested too… I think I just needed the break. 

I did go on my routine 3 ish mile walk today which was nice, and here are some of the Spring photos I took. 

 

The middle one is actually of the creek right near my house. I sat by it today because I was trying to get my creative writing juices flowing, without much progress. I know I probably need to make it a routine to get back into it, but it’s still discouraging– being in so much beauty without feeling like that translated into writing. Ugh. I am trying to write a book including short stories, poems, etc about my experience with anxiety. It’s a project I’ve wanted to do for a while, so at least I’m glad I’ve sort of started… even if it wasn’t as great a first day as I thought it would be. 

I guess I’ll try to remember this quote from The Alchemist:

There is only one thing that makes a dream impossible to achieve: the fear of failure.

Sometimes I feel like I’ve failed before I’ve tried something. Sigh. I’ve been trying to creatively write for years, but have been just so busy with graduate school that I have trouble getting into the creative writing mindset after so much academic writing. I am going to try to give it another go. I guess you can’t technically fail if you’re still trying. I have admittedly let fear run my life for far too long. 

 

Does anything help with your inspiration for creative writing?

 

Much love

Natalie 

 

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