Looks like we’re getting another 30 days of this. It’s sobering, seeing the estimated projected death toll for the US with the current data. I don’t think I’ve ever felt quite so awestruck by something, in a bad way.
I gave a guest lecture this evening, virtually, on sex addiction. I have been scheduled to do this for months and originally planned to do it in person. So I was worried my Internet would crap out and it lagged a few times which of course made me anxious because I want to do a good job. I realize that if students don’t engage it doesn’t necessarily have anything to do with me. I don’t take that as personally as I used to. There are so many bigger things going on in the world. But trying to lecture through this new online platform is a difficult experience for me because I can’t control the Internet. I am trying my best under the circumstances.
It’s good to do uncomfortable things. It’s weight training for life. -Anne Lamott, Plan B
I really like this quote … but who is a fan of making themselves uncomfortable ? Certainly I’m not.
I’m trying my best not to be too judgey of myself, but that’s hard. Sigh. So many new things and unknown things. As passionate as I am about addiction and related topics, it has been so hard sometimes to stay present when I think about the amount of suffering in the world. My profession of counseling is and will be needed more than ever… and the weight of that collective trauma is stifling. I’m going to keep trying to lean into uncomfortable experiences because I know many more will come and mine pale in comparison to the medical professionals out there. My prayers go to them. They are truly warriors.
Much love
Natalie
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