Wellness Wednesday

This new title of “Wellness Wednesdays” seems more hypocritical each week as my anxiety gets worse and I continue to overeat and workout less. But maybe I do have more reason than normal to have my anxiety activated this week at least. I went to a conference over the weekend and presented. While my presentation […]

High Functioning Anxiety 11

It’s Wednesday again, huh? Not really sure what to write. I’ve been keeping up with school work, just doing the minimum, which is what I can manage right now. And I’m kind of ok with that. My current circumstances have allowed me to take better care of myself and I’m grateful for that. I did, […]

Night Terror Last Night

Feeling upside down today. My anxiety has been relatively calm since I returned from Belize, so I am not sure what, if anything, spurred this. I spoke with my therapist about my dream this morning. I had the sensation that it was a long and involved dream, but here are the bits I remember: I […]

High Functioning Anxiety 10

I spent all of last week in Belize and took this photo at sea. Swimming is one of the few activities that usually calms and grounds me back into my body. Being completely present and not dissociated can be uncomfortable for me, I have a heightened startle response, I find people and things overwhelming. It’s […]

High Functioning Anxiety 9

The last week or so has been pretty miserable for me. I find one of my trauma/anxiety/whatever is wrong with me triggers is feeling like I can’t say no to something or being so stressed and confused to the max to where I can’t make good decisions or feeling forced into something. That has been […]

High Functioning Anxiety 8

I have been trying to take better care of myself, sleeping well, exercising, saying no to things immediately if they don’t feel good to me, just doing things for myself, by myself… like taking walks and taking pictures … I’d rather just drown in a field than anything else. My chest hurts right now… I […]

Anxiety Dream Analysis

Soooo my anxiety inevitably affects my dreams. Thursday night into Friday I stayed up until 3 am working on converting the references in a book chapter I helped write from APA to Chicago Style. Not the most fun task, but it had to be done. That night I had a very vivid dream, which hasn’t […]