I've been getting back in touch with myself and it's a good thing. It has involved changing how I dress, act, speak, wear my makeup--- everything. so as to be more authentic. I know there's a time to be professional but I'm becoming much more comfortable expressing myself and not hiding who I really am--- [...]
Worked on my dissertation today, went to Zumba and saw 4 clients in a row at the private practice. Was great to see progress that my clients have made, but I'm spent-- more so because of dissertation worries than anything else. I think overeating brings up a lot for me. I notice how much better [...]
Had a great weekend. Definitely overate yesterday, but for whatever reason I'm not beating myself up about it like I normally would. I still lifted today and plan to do cardio (zumba) tomorrow. I try to live by not waiting until you like how you look to go out and do things. You'll never reach [...]
Worked for an hour on my dissertation today and that's all I could muster. But that's ok. I'm going to a great restaurant tonight and likely swimming tomorrow. Things will get done when they're supposed to get done and I'm not killing myself over it. I know my anxiety can get to dangerous levels. And [...]
Wow and how things can change is less than 24 hours. With a lot of different things added on my plate and feeling the time crunch, I'm overwhelmed. Ok, but overwhelmed. Also, I received my first (I think) rejection of conference proposal, which was sort of surprising, but not really given that I didn't have [...]
I felt very bad earlier today. Making plans often triggers me in ways I don't readily become aware of. I've dealt with flakey people a lot and I'm a firm believer that you should never chase people to hang out with you. If they want to, they will. Period. However, my past and my anxiety [...]
Today was more productive than I thought it would be. I didn't sleep well. Again. But somehow I still didn't feel very anxious about working. I went to zumba with my mom and then we had lunch. I was able to work on my dissertation for a couple hours while also completing some other work. [...]
And so it begins, me trying to blog every day in August, even if it's just a picture. I like the above shot of me, even though the selfie is from yesterday. Today I woke up without having slept well. That's nothing remarkable. But what is notable is that I wasn't anxious. I had an [...]
Skipped a week for the first time in a while. Blast. A lot going on and a lot of new developments in terms of my dissertation process, which is moving along slowly, as well as starting in private practice. All good stressors, I keep reminding myself. I am going to try to challenge myself to [...]
I've been trying to make dissertation writing a habit, and it's starting to stick, but I'm going on a mini vacation to visit a friend soon and I'm afraid it'll throw off my groove when I come back. Sigh. It's always hard to have so much writing and work looming because you feel like during [...]
Eternal Ocean of Words 