Plans Trigger and Rant

More and more I see how much making plans with people triggers me, or rather, the process of making plans does. Case in point: a friend mentions that we should meet up this week (saying this last week). We pick a day and time and then it is never mentioned again. The day passes without […]

Anxiety

Your to-do list taunts you And you find no relief from checking anything off Crossing anything out Or obliterating the task with ink. Fear consumes. Normal daily tasks overwhelm And you doubt your ability to do The most menial of things. You mindlessly compare yourself To others you know nothing about, But somehow, you should […]

Nothing Comes to Mind

I recently paid a much needed visit to my home town of Batavia, Illinois. It was brief, but helped.  It’s good to get back in touch with your roots … if you have any. That’s a tough one for me, because I often feel like I don’t belong anywhere as I’ve moved so much. But […]

Wellness Wednesday: Guilt, Shame, and Forgiveness

June 6th is always a hard date/anniversary for me. It’s strange that Wellness Wednesday happened to fall on it, when I haven’t been doing this for very long. Five years ago today my Grandma on my mom’s side passed away while I was holding her hand. I was watching her breath fog up her oxygen […]

Wellness Wednesday

This new title of “Wellness Wednesdays” seems more hypocritical each week as my anxiety gets worse and I continue to overeat and workout less. But maybe I do have more reason than normal to have my anxiety activated this week at least. I went to a conference over the weekend and presented. While my presentation […]

High Functioning Anxiety 12

I think my post today is going to be short, likely due to my annoyance with my slow internet. Anyway One of the many perks of going to a Catholic university is getting holidays off… which helps me recharge. My anxiety has been in reasonable check lately, pretty much the only thing throwing me off […]