Oscar Wilde said: ‘Each man kills the thing he loves.’ And it’s true. The mere possibility of getting what we want fills the soul of the ordinary person with guilt. I’m reading The Alchemist again. Every time I do I get something else from it, relevant to what I’m going through at the time. I [...]

A Memory

A memory popped up on my facebook today from 2016. I took a selfie in a bathroom mirror at a university after presenting at a conference. I drove from Pittsburgh to southern Illinois to present on my thesis by myself. It's been interesting reflecting on just how close I was to dropping out of undergrad [...]

Update/Free Write

I don't believe I've ever tried to so hard to heal myself. I can feel it in my body. I know what it needs, better food, more water, more movement... but also something deeper that I can only get without isolating myself. And that's to be really seen. Witnessed. In the fullness of myself. Getting [...]

Yesterday was my last teaching day of the semester, and I wasn’t feeling well. I had an unexpected break and decided to treat myself to some Thai food before teaching at six. I don’t remember the last time I really went to eat somewhere alone so I was kind of nervous about feeling out of [...]

Seascape Saturday

Belize was phenomenal. I saw so many lovely sea creatures that I can’t wait to post about. Some of which for this first time ever! I seem to come back with more appreciation for myself too. It’s a nudge for self care so I can continue scuba diving and free diving. It’s interesting how caring [...]