Neurodivergent Well-being

I didn’t blog every day in August, so maybe I’ll try the last month of 2022. Greetings. I’m alive. Sort of. In some ways this year has been the best and the worst. I’ve done so much that I’ve wanted to do but have had some hard realizations … including that the world is not [...]

Trauma I’ll Never Understand

It's hard to teach a trauma course. I know about a lot of trauma, personally and professionally, but it's intimidating to teach about trauma that I'll never fully understand. Like racialized trauma. I don't know what it's like to live in a world or country where people who look like I do are in danger. [...]

Welp.

Found out this week I won’t be teaching a class I spent hours preparing for due to enrollment issues. I know this isn’t an anomaly or personal but … it just touches on everything I’ve been working on lately and it doesn’t feel good. I hate feeling like I’ve wasted time that I could have [...]

Scheduling Anxiety

It seemingly never ends... with my split position between clinical work and teaching it just feels like there's any endless slew of schedule conflicts for me to deal with and constantly feel like I'm failing one aspect of my position. So we're trying to finalize schedules for the fall and I get an email from [...]

A Moving Conversation

Most powerful conversations happen to me seemingly at random. I spoke with a colleague and friend today to pick her brain about getting tips for teaching an upcoming class. We somehow got into a conversation about exercise and how academia will allow you to work yourself ragged if you let it. I recalled seeing a [...]

Blogust 22

I somehow have survived my first week as a new professor during a pandemic. I was present for some of it, on autopilot for some of it, but I have to put some things in perspective. If I started this new venture even just a couple of years ago I am pretty sure I would [...]

Blogust 5

Calling all professors Calling all professors Especially the new ones--- Who feels overwhelmed about the Fall semester? *raises hand* I'm trying to remember that it's normal to be nervous as a new-ish professor. I'm trying to remember that teaching online is inherently stressful when you didn't plan to teach online. I'm trying to remember that [...]

I swam for the first time in months

   The gyms have been closed so I swam in a lake at Raccoon Creek State Park and Moraine State Park. I swam two days in a row. The sun was perfect and lifted my spirits. I nearly teared up as I approached the water because I almost couldn't believe I would get to swim [...]

Confident

It’s not something that I would normally describe myself as. I do want to memorialize this moment in time. It was before my dissertation defense and I WAS feeling confident. And yes I took off my blazer because I was hot and put it back on before I defended my dissertation via zoom. Lol I [...]

Seascape Saturday

The sea holds wonders Above and below Horizons shift Separate worlds You come to know.   I chose this photo today because I've been feeling off-balance. Likely, I'm not alone in this. Part of me is exceedingly grateful for the change of pace and another part of me is just completely unsure of how to [...]