A lot can happen in a day

I found out a manuscript I submitted was rejected by yet ANOTHER journal, but I also got the notification that my dissertation chair has approved my chapters 1-3 to be sent out to the rest of my committee. YAY. Progress. I might actually be done earlier than I thought. I swam 50 laps at the [...]

Isolation

Dissertation writing can be so isolating. I always chide myself for not tying harder to stay in touch with my cohort, but people grow apart everyone has their own lives. Also, in the back of my mind I often think people are sick of me anyway. lol. I should be done with my dissertation by [...]

Most Comfortable at a Distance

I can see the glowing lights I can see them every night Really not that far away I could be there in a day I wonder if you live there still I kind of think you always will If I tried, you'd probably be Hard to find. Teaching is such s humbling experience, especially when [...]

Good Mentorship

Is so invaluable. Especially when you don't feel like any of your fears, worries, or other emotions were really heard growing up. My best mentors can tell me when I'm overreacting and I don't take offense to it because of their delivery. It's so refreshing. To be validated but then also given another perspective in [...]

Last month of the year

This year has been insane in a lot of ways. I've grown so much personally and professionally. My circle has thinned and I'm ok with almost all of those changes. Sometimes when you're an intense person like I am you can't stand surface level connection or friendships. I keep people who offer me shallow connection [...]

This week is going to be a doozy

I want to try to blog every day in December. Not sure how that will go, but what the heck. I'll try. The semester is winding down. I present at a forensics conference Tuesday. Teach Thursday and work Friday ... but I'm anxious about Friday apparently for a dumb reason: I have to wear a [...]

“Wellness” During Dissertation

I'm starting to believe that there may not be such a thing, that undertaking such a task is in and of itself "crazy" and unhealthy. It certainly feels that way at times, no matter how invested I am in my education and my dissertation topic and no matter how hard a worker I am and [...]

Peace

That's really all I want. Nothing has been reinforced more in 2019 for me than that. I just want to live in a tension free environment and be around people who are transparent. My experiences growing up definitely taught me that money can get you a lot of things, but it can't give you peace. [...]

Wellness Wednesday

I'm exhausted. I've had meltdowns. The journey to getting my doctorate is such a humbling process. I'm tired of not being good at things and constantly making mistakes. It just gets exhausting. However, this video I think actually describes what I'm going through quite well. When you go through any transition and compare yourself to [...]

Wellness Wednesday

There are actually so many things I want to write about. The wilderness I explored in Washington state Joker the movie The difference between a therapist and life coach. But it's midnight and I'm reflecting on the conference I presented at last week. I was so nervous and my presentation didn't go as smoothly as [...]