I slept better than I've slept for a long time Sunday into Monday, but last night it felt like I didn't sleepy at all. I know that's not true though because I remember a dream I had. Anyway, it's always rough when my night isn't restful and my chest hurts because of anxiety and I [...]
I think throughout my doctorate program I did a pretty good job of keeping up with self-care until now. I think being stretched so thin and having to immerse myself in so many different research projects and presentations has finally caught up with me and I can't think straight. I try to make a list [...]
When I feel like I have a million and one things to keep track of, so many moving parts... I feel like I let everyone down because I cannot do my absolute best at everything that is in front of me. I have tried my hardest to just accept that I'm doing the best that [...]
Sometimes I wonder if I should have went to school for something different... something that would allow for me to work from home, not interact with people, and just hide away. I don't know what that might be... as I'm not very interested in computers or anything, but, I do wonder if I've made the [...]
This wellness post is coming to you around midnight my time... that counts, right? I know I will likely have zero free time tomorrow (after I sleep) because I have a doctor's appointment, want to swim laps, have meetings to go to regarding dissertation things and presenting at a conference next week, class, and I [...]
There are days when I can find joy even in the smallest of things the smallest of worlds. But when my darkness descends I no longer have access. It wasn't me who experienced that connection that peace. It couldn't have been. That joy whatever it was, wasn't me.
I'm so messed up I didn't even realize it was Wednesday until now. I'm sitting in the parking lot of my university listening to The National before having to be around people for the next 7 hours. The thought is just exhausting and I'm seriously considering just going home after the meetings I absolutely [...]