Like, at all. I tried to work but couldn’t focus. Lost internet connection and lost some of my work. I tried to record things for my online class that starts in June but kept getting interrupted. I was so unproductive today despite my efforts. Going on my normal walk didn’t even help. Neither did trying [...]
It’s not something that I would normally describe myself as. I do want to memorialize this moment in time. It was before my dissertation defense and I WAS feeling confident. And yes I took off my blazer because I was hot and put it back on before I defended my dissertation via zoom. Lol I [...]
The sea holds wonders Above and below Horizons shift Separate worlds You come to know. I chose this photo today because I've been feeling off-balance. Likely, I'm not alone in this. Part of me is exceedingly grateful for the change of pace and another part of me is just completely unsure of how to [...]
As if teaching online isn't anxiety-inducing enough. My Internet was cutting in and out so I couldn't even lecture properly or have the discussions along the way that I wanted to. Thank God the Internet worked for the first bit while we were discussing articles. My anxiety is usually so well under control and managed, [...]
Man... the days are really starting to blend together for me. While I have been keeping up with working out, getting myself to do work is becoming more of a challenge 😦 I don’t have a lot of creative juicing flowing at the moment and am lacking inspiration, which is so so frustrating to me [...]
I had such an eerie experience on my walk today. There were no cars, no breeze, and the birds fell silent for a bit. It felt as though time had stopped ... and this sensation of being alone enveloped me briefly. It was like, beyond fear, it was more like this visceral knowing of isolation. [...]
I was a little bored today... well, that's an understatement. Working from home is getting to me more than I thought it would. Though I would normally work from home some days during the week, being forced to much of the time is wearing me down. Today I played with some makeup and made the [...]
Looks like we’re getting another 30 days of this. It’s sobering, seeing the estimated projected death toll for the US with the current data. I don’t think I’ve ever felt quite so awestruck by something, in a bad way. I gave a guest lecture this evening, virtually, on sex addiction. I have been scheduled to [...]
Today was weird. It wasn't until after 1 pm that I looked up anything about the virus. I kind of feel guilty about that in a way? But I also think it was good for my mental health. I was working to transition my master's counseling course this semester to an online format, engaging with [...]
This is something I could write a book about... seriously. And I think I've only just begun to deeply understand it. A lot of times when people are emotionally abused, they don't realize that it's happening. At first. They may feel terrible, but especially when the abuse occurs in childhood, it can be seen as [...]
