I’m not doing well

For a variety of reasons. And I had a pretty disturbing experience at the tail end of my walk yesterday that I can't get out of my head. [actually no pun intended... weird] I was walking down the main drag of the town back to the apartment. And I saw a snake in the road. [...]

Blogust 22

I somehow have survived my first week as a new professor during a pandemic. I was present for some of it, on autopilot for some of it, but I have to put some things in perspective. If I started this new venture even just a couple of years ago I am pretty sure I would [...]

Taking Care of Your Mental Health During Quarantine

This can certainly be a challenge-- I know that it has been interesting, illuminating, and rough for me at the same time. There are some things that are easier for me than others-- working from home I don't mind so much, but restrictions on my movement have proven to be the worst aspect for me [...]

Secret Garden Book Review and Words of Hope

One of the new things people began to find out in the last century was that thoughts—just mere thoughts—are as powerful as electric batteries—as good for one as sunlight is, or as bad for one as poison. To let a sad thought or a bad one get into your mind is as dangerous as letting [...]

Creative Writing Fears

So I've been trying to be true to myself recently by making time to write creatively while also being swamped with PhD life/dissertation stuff/class prepping/academic work. One of my true passions is creative writing and it's so hard to not have that beaten out of you. Don't get me wrong, academic writing is definitely creative [...]

Anxiety

Your to-do list taunts you And you find no relief from checking anything off Crossing anything out Or obliterating the task with ink. Fear consumes. Normal daily tasks overwhelm And you doubt your ability to do The most menial of things. You mindlessly compare yourself To others you know nothing about, But somehow, you should [...]

Wellness Wednesday: Fear

You know, I was in such a bad state last week that I started drafting this post. I do think fear runs my life much more than I realize, but I felt particularly awful and fearful last week. It's strange to revisit that because while I still deal with fear and anxiety daily, I am [...]

High Functioning Anxiety 7

I haven't been doing very well. I think that having to be "on" most days, doing groups, teaching, being in class, etc, is all just taking a toll on me. I knew this semester would be trying, but I didn't realize how assaulted I would feel. It has been hard for me to get out [...]