Happy New Year

This is me in my happy place--- at sea. There are so so many photos of the sea that I have from over the years that bring me peace just looking at them. I need to be more intentional about having the sea available to me in various ways as well as committing to going [...]

Anxiety During the Holidays

Today was just one of those days that I tried really hard. Lifted. Went on a walk because it was gorgeous out. And my anxiety was still very, very bad most of the day. I made it through seeing my two clients but overall my anxiety just ended up being unbearable. I'm tired of my [...]

Trauma and Shrinking

Let's just start by saying relational trauma is a thing. And it can make connecting with people especially hard. I realize that certain tendencies within myself are trauma responses. My tendency to clean when I'm anxious and don't feel well. Why do kids who grow up in unstable environments feel the need to be perfect [...]

Most Comfortable at a Distance

I can see the glowing lights I can see them every night Really not that far away I could be there in a day I wonder if you live there still I kind of think you always will If I tried, you'd probably be Hard to find. Teaching is such s humbling experience, especially when [...]

This week is going to be a doozy

I want to try to blog every day in December. Not sure how that will go, but what the heck. I'll try. The semester is winding down. I present at a forensics conference Tuesday. Teach Thursday and work Friday ... but I'm anxious about Friday apparently for a dumb reason: I have to wear a [...]

I have to reflect on yesterday …

I don't know what was going on with me yesterday, but it was proven to me multiple times over that my first thoughts about things are often very negative and wrong. So I was on my way to work (inpatient drug and alcohol rehab center). I work there sporadically. I get a text from a [...]