I don't know what was going on with me yesterday, but it was proven to me multiple times over that my first thoughts about things are often very negative and wrong. So I was on my way to work (inpatient drug and alcohol rehab center). I work there sporadically. I get a text from a [...]
I've been getting back in touch with myself and it's a good thing. It has involved changing how I dress, act, speak, wear my makeup--- everything. so as to be more authentic. I know there's a time to be professional but I'm becoming much more comfortable expressing myself and not hiding who I really am--- [...]
Had a great weekend. Definitely overate yesterday, but for whatever reason I'm not beating myself up about it like I normally would. I still lifted today and plan to do cardio (zumba) tomorrow. I try to live by not waiting until you like how you look to go out and do things. You'll never reach [...]
I felt very bad earlier today. Making plans often triggers me in ways I don't readily become aware of. I've dealt with flakey people a lot and I'm a firm believer that you should never chase people to hang out with you. If they want to, they will. Period. However, my past and my anxiety [...]
I try so hard not to lose myself in the practical daily tasks that suck my energy and often trigger my anxiety. I dissociate much less often than I used to. And I hardly ever fully dissociate anymore, which is wonderful but at the same time-- it can be hard to be fully present if [...]
A while ago I was instructed to paint how I was currently feeling in a class. This seems to represent my feelings often --- a mix of calm on the surface but so much going on underneath as well as a riot of color that I'm not always able to express. The sea obviously too [...]
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