Seascape Saturday

  Sometimes the sea is crystal clear And it's easy to be aware of the beauty around you. When it's murky And all the sand is kicked up from the turmoil that storms bring It can be harder to trust that beauty, peace, and presence Are still possible. But remember, the sea cleanses itself And [...]

It’s not often

That I'm at a loss for words, but even if I just bulletted everything that happened today for you as well as my thoughts...I'm not sure it would adequately convey everything. I think the best way to describe it is just a resignation to this old familiar unhealthy pattern I've been in with a few [...]

Toll of Emotional Abuse

This is something I could write a book about... seriously. And I think I've only just begun to deeply understand it. A lot of times when people are emotionally abused, they don't realize that it's happening. At first. They may feel terrible, but especially when the abuse occurs in childhood, it can be seen as [...]

First Snow?

It's February and I actually thought I had gotten away with not having a "real Winter." Oh well, it is beautiful. And my late wolf baby Luna (rescue pooch) loved the snow, so I guess I can't hate it too much. I feel like the second image from the top sort of reminds me of [...]

Bonus ”Seascape”

I start dreaming of the sea ore frequently if I haven't been there in a while. That has started for me. Recently I dreamt that I went on my trip to Belize but forgot my underwater cameras! Most of the time they're peaceful dreams though ... dreaming of dolphins, whales, fish, sea critters. I will [...]

Happy New Year

This is me in my happy place--- at sea. There are so so many photos of the sea that I have from over the years that bring me peace just looking at them. I need to be more intentional about having the sea available to me in various ways as well as committing to going [...]

Anxiety During the Holidays

Today was just one of those days that I tried really hard. Lifted. Went on a walk because it was gorgeous out. And my anxiety was still very, very bad most of the day. I made it through seeing my two clients but overall my anxiety just ended up being unbearable. I'm tired of my [...]

Trauma and Shrinking

Let's just start by saying relational trauma is a thing. And it can make connecting with people especially hard. I realize that certain tendencies within myself are trauma responses. My tendency to clean when I'm anxious and don't feel well. Why do kids who grow up in unstable environments feel the need to be perfect [...]