A memory popped up on my facebook today from 2016. I took a selfie in a bathroom mirror at a university after presenting at a conference. I drove from Pittsburgh to southern Illinois to present on my thesis by myself. It's been interesting reflecting on just how close I was to dropping out of undergrad [...]
Tag: high functioning anxiety
Confident
It’s not something that I would normally describe myself as. I do want to memorialize this moment in time. It was before my dissertation defense and I WAS feeling confident. And yes I took off my blazer because I was hot and put it back on before I defended my dissertation via zoom. Lol I [...]
High Functioning Anxiety While Teaching
The blog that I wrote this week for my friend's private practice could not have come at a better time, it's on high functioning anxiety. I'll link it when it becomes live. It's relevant for me today because I taught my first class of the semester. Though I think I was repetitive and second guessed [...]
Anxiety During the Holidays
Today was just one of those days that I tried really hard. Lifted. Went on a walk because it was gorgeous out. And my anxiety was still very, very bad most of the day. I made it through seeing my two clients but overall my anxiety just ended up being unbearable. I'm tired of my [...]
This week is going to be a doozy
I want to try to blog every day in December. Not sure how that will go, but what the heck. I'll try. The semester is winding down. I present at a forensics conference Tuesday. Teach Thursday and work Friday ... but I'm anxious about Friday apparently for a dumb reason: I have to wear a [...]
High Functioning Anxiety 11
It's Wednesday again, huh? Not really sure what to write. I've been keeping up with school work, just doing the minimum, which is what I can manage right now. And I'm kind of ok with that. My current circumstances have allowed me to take better care of myself and I'm grateful for that. I did, [...]
High Functioning Anxiety 10
I spent all of last week in Belize and took this photo at sea. Swimming is one of the few activities that usually calms and grounds me back into my body. Being completely present and not dissociated can be uncomfortable for me, I have a heightened startle response, I find people and things overwhelming. It's [...]
High Functioning Anxiety 9
The last week or so has been pretty miserable for me. I find one of my trauma/anxiety/whatever is wrong with me triggers is feeling like I can't say no to something or being so stressed and confused to the max to where I can't make good decisions or feeling forced into something. That has been [...]
High Functioning Anxiety 8
I have been trying to take better care of myself, sleeping well, exercising, saying no to things immediately if they don't feel good to me, just doing things for myself, by myself... like taking walks and taking pictures ... I'd rather just drown in a field than anything else. My chest hurts right now... I [...]
Anxiety Dream Analysis
Soooo my anxiety inevitably affects my dreams. Thursday night into Friday I stayed up until 3 am working on converting the references in a book chapter I helped write from APA to Chicago Style. Not the most fun task, but it had to be done. That night I had a very vivid dream, which hasn't [...]
Eternal Ocean of Words 