If I’m not in a space where I can be happy for you

Then I don't want to be around you. Because that's generally not me... usually I'm able to share joy with people, but it's snowing outside and even though I started off my day well-rested and I was super productive in terms of writing today... I'm just off and not feeling it. Hopefully swimming laps will [...]

An Old Friend

Today is one of those days that I repeat to myself how weird my life feels. It's hard to explain to other people who haven't moved around a lot... that feeling of so many different threads in your life, different paths you could have taken, different friends you've made and lost contact with, being torn [...]

I have to reflect on yesterday …

I don't know what was going on with me yesterday, but it was proven to me multiple times over that my first thoughts about things are often very negative and wrong. So I was on my way to work (inpatient drug and alcohol rehab center). I work there sporadically. I get a text from a [...]

Plans Trigger and Rant

More and more I see how much making plans with people triggers me, or rather, the process of making plans does. Case in point: a friend mentions that we should meet up this week (saying this last week). We pick a day and time and then it is never mentioned again. The day passes without [...]

High Functioning Anxiety 9

The last week or so has been pretty miserable for me. I find one of my trauma/anxiety/whatever is wrong with me triggers is feeling like I can't say no to something or being so stressed and confused to the max to where I can't make good decisions or feeling forced into something. That has been [...]

High Functioning Anxiety

I've been wanting to start a series of either blog posts or vlogs about high functioning anxiety and my experience with it for a while, but haven't really had the time, courage, or both. This series will document my own thoughts and journey I suppose, and also hopefully reach other people with anxiety, because I [...]

The Conscious Heart

I found this work very inspiring and useful both as a professional and as someone in a committed relationship and agree with the majority of the suggestions this couple present. To me, relationships should help inspire growth in both people, so they can become the best and truest versions of themselves. I recognize as a [...]

Imposter Syndrome

I received an award today, and at the dinner right before I was about to go up, I felt a bout of imposter syndrome take over me.  Do I really deserve this? The award recognized me for mentoring other women and promoting gender equality.  I believe that I do these things, but in my moment [...]

The Awakening – Kate Chopin

5/5 Stars. LOVED. IT. When I read the critiques at the end of this edition, especially the one by Willa Cather... I was shocked. So scathing! Maybe not everyone only writes about the amazing beauty of nature, Willa, come on. And so what if Edna is so much of an idealist, where do you think [...]