Wellness Wednesday: Back to the Wild

There is nothing like going to the sea that brings me back to my wild nature. I try to hold onto it as best as I can. I am also reading Women Who Run With the Wolves by Clarissa Pinkola Estes, PhD, a Jungian psychoanalyst. It is absolutely beautiful, food for the soul, with its [...]

Wellness Wednesday: Spring Will Come

When the cold and the grey of Pennsylvania start getting me down, I have to remember that Spring will come. That's hard to remember on days when my anxiety gets the best of me. It's a constant battle. Today, at this very moment, as I type this before going into a meeting at my university-- [...]

Everything feels old, decrepit, broken

I can't sleep. I'm anxious because I'm getting no sleep, so it's harder to fall asleep. So I do what you're supposed to do, stop checking your phone and get out of bed, but it's 3 am here now and that doesn't help because I have to get up at 6:30. I know I'm going [...]

Hello Anxiety, My Old Friend.

Anxiety: Abstract drowning, with your head just below the surface... but you can't lift it to breathe. Most people say that they had no idea that I struggle[d] with anxiety, looking at me now. I'm in a PhD program, an addictions counselor who runs therapy groups with people who are sometimes [understandably] not so happy, [...]

High Functioning Anxiety 6

Normally I don't post so late, but alas, school has been occupying most of my thoughts. This week didn't start out very well... I taught my first lesson as a TA in a master's level addictions course. I felt the all too familiar all-consuming dread, heart pounding, feeling flushed, mouth dry, head ache, etc before [...]

High Functioning Anxiety 3

It's Wednesday. Blargh. Really don't feel like blogging today. I don't feel like doing much of anything. I'm overwhelmed. Taking three classes Teaching one (TA) Supervising masters level therapists Running a personal growth group Have a graduate assistantship Should be trying to make plans for my dissertation Should be turning my master's thesis into an [...]