Merry Christmas

Overate. Practiced with polymer clay. Needed more time to myself. Just spent the day with my mom and bulldog and that was needed. I'll get back on track with getting healthier tomorrow. Lol. I've actually done pretty well up until today and yesterday so that's good. I'm just still so exhausted from my melt down [...]

Merry Christmas Eve

Chose to stay home today for my mental health. Made some little things out of clay. Have a lot of things I would like to write about like character analyses for Breaking Bad and the difference between a therapist and a life coach, but I don't think I have the energy today. I think I'm [...]

Anxiety During the Holidays

Today was just one of those days that I tried really hard. Lifted. Went on a walk because it was gorgeous out. And my anxiety was still very, very bad most of the day. I made it through seeing my two clients but overall my anxiety just ended up being unbearable. I'm tired of my [...]

Trauma and Shrinking

Let's just start by saying relational trauma is a thing. And it can make connecting with people especially hard. I realize that certain tendencies within myself are trauma responses. My tendency to clean when I'm anxious and don't feel well. Why do kids who grow up in unstable environments feel the need to be perfect [...]

Creativity

I've noticed that if I don't engage in creative endeavors often enough I feel so much less fulfilled and more sluggish. I'm going to try to commit to making things and writing creative things more often. Maybe get more active on my Etsy shop again. I love making little critters with polymer clay. I think [...]

Isolation

Dissertation writing can be so isolating. I always chide myself for not tying harder to stay in touch with my cohort, but people grow apart everyone has their own lives. Also, in the back of my mind I often think people are sick of me anyway. lol. I should be done with my dissertation by [...]

A Beautiful Day in the Neighborhood [no spoilers]

I heard this movie was good before I saw it and I intentionally didn't research it. Sure it was a bit nostalgic for me, but even if you've never seen Mr Rogers while growing up, this is still a great movie. Tom Hanks was phenomenal. And I think lately there have been so many things [...]