One of my favorite Jane Eyre quotes

That a greater fool than Jane Eyre had never breathed the breath of life; that a more fantastic idiot had never surfeited herself on sweet lies, and swallowed poison as if it were nectar. -Charlotte Bronte   I have always so identified with this story... even though I'm not an orphan, in many ways I [...]

Anxiety During the Holidays

Today was just one of those days that I tried really hard. Lifted. Went on a walk because it was gorgeous out. And my anxiety was still very, very bad most of the day. I made it through seeing my two clients but overall my anxiety just ended up being unbearable. I'm tired of my [...]

Trauma and Shrinking

Let's just start by saying relational trauma is a thing. And it can make connecting with people especially hard. I realize that certain tendencies within myself are trauma responses. My tendency to clean when I'm anxious and don't feel well. Why do kids who grow up in unstable environments feel the need to be perfect [...]

A Beautiful Day in the Neighborhood [no spoilers]

I heard this movie was good before I saw it and I intentionally didn't research it. Sure it was a bit nostalgic for me, but even if you've never seen Mr Rogers while growing up, this is still a great movie. Tom Hanks was phenomenal. And I think lately there have been so many things [...]

Good Mentorship

Is so invaluable. Especially when you don't feel like any of your fears, worries, or other emotions were really heard growing up. My best mentors can tell me when I'm overreacting and I don't take offense to it because of their delivery. It's so refreshing. To be validated but then also given another perspective in [...]

Last month of the year

This year has been insane in a lot of ways. I've grown so much personally and professionally. My circle has thinned and I'm ok with almost all of those changes. Sometimes when you're an intense person like I am you can't stand surface level connection or friendships. I keep people who offer me shallow connection [...]

I feel like I'm on the edge of a great precipice. A great change. It'll probably one of the healthiest ones I'll ever make for myself and I'm sure I'll never go back. I'm becoming more and more stingy with my time and more selective about who I give attention and power to. I'm not [...]

Midnight Musings

I really have to stop taking responsibility for trying to fix other people's behavior that I didn't like or don't agree with. It's not all on me to mend connections or potential connections with people. And putting energy into people who wouldn't do the same for you is damaging and depleting. My time is valuable [...]

Peace

That's really all I want. Nothing has been reinforced more in 2019 for me than that. I just want to live in a tension free environment and be around people who are transparent. My experiences growing up definitely taught me that money can get you a lot of things, but it can't give you peace. [...]