If I’m not in a space where I can be happy for you

Then I don't want to be around you. Because that's generally not me... usually I'm able to share joy with people, but it's snowing outside and even though I started off my day well-rested and I was super productive in terms of writing today... I'm just off and not feeling it. Hopefully swimming laps will [...]

Wellness Wednesday

Haven't done one of these in a while. We see posts all the time telling us to always be kind because we don't know what battles people are fighting. And I just was reflecting on the people who have been kind to me in my life and it is so, so appreciated, especially because for [...]

Back to work… sort of

So even though the semester doesn't start for me for a while, I have to class prep and work on my dissertation. It's slow going getting back into the groove of things, but today I worked from home, set hour timers, and then did quick 5-10 minute yoga routines (aided by Youtube) in between my [...]

Creativity

I've noticed that if I don't engage in creative endeavors often enough I feel so much less fulfilled and more sluggish. I'm going to try to commit to making things and writing creative things more often. Maybe get more active on my Etsy shop again. I love making little critters with polymer clay. I think [...]

Isolation

Dissertation writing can be so isolating. I always chide myself for not tying harder to stay in touch with my cohort, but people grow apart everyone has their own lives. Also, in the back of my mind I often think people are sick of me anyway. lol. I should be done with my dissertation by [...]

Most Comfortable at a Distance

I can see the glowing lights I can see them every night Really not that far away I could be there in a day I wonder if you live there still I kind of think you always will If I tried, you'd probably be Hard to find. Teaching is such s humbling experience, especially when [...]

Good Mentorship

Is so invaluable. Especially when you don't feel like any of your fears, worries, or other emotions were really heard growing up. My best mentors can tell me when I'm overreacting and I don't take offense to it because of their delivery. It's so refreshing. To be validated but then also given another perspective in [...]

Triumphant

This conference went infinitely better than my last. Not only was I talking about a topic I'm passionate about, but I was totally comfortable with the situation. So that was great and I'm proud that I pushed through my anxiety to contribute some substantial stuff to the forensic presentation about sex offenders Love that stuff. [...]

Last month of the year

This year has been insane in a lot of ways. I've grown so much personally and professionally. My circle has thinned and I'm ok with almost all of those changes. Sometimes when you're an intense person like I am you can't stand surface level connection or friendships. I keep people who offer me shallow connection [...]

Wellness Wednesday

I'm leaving for Seattle in a few hours to present at a conference. I would have liked to have had more time to prepare, but it is what it is. Dissertation is such a lonely and isolating process, it's unreal. You do receive help from your committee and mentors for sure... but, everything really all [...]