What really grates me…

  I think I'm going to start a few recurring posts as I see fit... one, I think, is going to be "Seascape Saturday" and the other is just simply going to be things that grate my ass... whenever things like that come up (which, is often). You can guess which one today's post is... [...]

Anxiety During the Holidays

Today was just one of those days that I tried really hard. Lifted. Went on a walk because it was gorgeous out. And my anxiety was still very, very bad most of the day. I made it through seeing my two clients but overall my anxiety just ended up being unbearable. I'm tired of my [...]

Trauma and Shrinking

Let's just start by saying relational trauma is a thing. And it can make connecting with people especially hard. I realize that certain tendencies within myself are trauma responses. My tendency to clean when I'm anxious and don't feel well. Why do kids who grow up in unstable environments feel the need to be perfect [...]

This week is going to be a doozy

I want to try to blog every day in December. Not sure how that will go, but what the heck. I'll try. The semester is winding down. I present at a forensics conference Tuesday. Teach Thursday and work Friday ... but I'm anxious about Friday apparently for a dumb reason: I have to wear a [...]

Wellness Wednesday

Started this yesterday and finished it today. As is my life. Lol. I guess I can sort of commend myself on trying to be flexible with how much my schedule has changed yesterday. Usually that stresses me out, but I've been relatively ok with it. I did turn in my dissertation proposal. I appreciated running [...]

I have to reflect on yesterday …

I don't know what was going on with me yesterday, but it was proven to me multiple times over that my first thoughts about things are often very negative and wrong. So I was on my way to work (inpatient drug and alcohol rehab center). I work there sporadically. I get a text from a [...]

Wellness Wednesday

I've been trying to make dissertation writing a habit, and it's starting to stick, but I'm going on a mini vacation to visit a friend soon and I'm afraid it'll throw off my groove when I come back. Sigh. It's always hard to have so much writing and work looming because you feel like during [...]