I had such an eerie experience on my walk today. There were no cars, no breeze, and the birds fell silent for a bit. It felt as though time had stopped ... and this sensation of being alone enveloped me briefly. It was like, beyond fear, it was more like this visceral knowing of isolation. [...]
I actually went out of the house today because I am a mental health therapist, which is deemed "essential." I would agree. Especially now. I went to a deserted office to conduct telehealth sessions. The three that I had went pretty well, despite a few technology hiccups. It did kind of get to me-- going [...]
This was part of my day today ... reading in the sunroom. I forced myself to take the day off- something I haven’t done in a while. And though I didn’t get the creative writing started that I wanted to, I felt better than I have in a long time. Just taking the day for [...]
Sometimes the sea is crystal clear And it's easy to be aware of the beauty around you. When it's murky And all the sand is kicked up from the turmoil that storms bring It can be harder to trust that beauty, peace, and presence Are still possible. But remember, the sea cleanses itself And [...]
This is the first time in forever I feel like I’m awake and intentional. I’ve never been so excited for spring. It has become more and more apparent what is the real me versus what is trauma response. Nothing has been more freeing.
I read something today on a neurodivergent blog I follow/write for. It said that people with autism, particularly women, have spiritual experiences and intuitive abilities. I've always sort of felt this way, though I'm not sure if the autism label fits for me. I don't feel like labels matter... but experiences do. If you've been [...]
Then we can't be friends. Lol, no but seriously... I take comfort in knowing that the sea is always there. Waiting. Even if I'm not by it and can't see it, I know it's there.
I'll give you a hint... there's two 🙂 I've started class prepping for the upcoming semester. That should help to quell my anxiety when my class starts at the end of the month. I also plan to reward myself with a trip to the sea/Galapagos when I finish my PhD. Do you reward [...]
That's really all I want. Nothing has been reinforced more in 2019 for me than that. I just want to live in a tension free environment and be around people who are transparent. My experiences growing up definitely taught me that money can get you a lot of things, but it can't give you peace. [...]
I'm leaving for Seattle in a few hours to present at a conference. I would have liked to have had more time to prepare, but it is what it is. Dissertation is such a lonely and isolating process, it's unreal. You do receive help from your committee and mentors for sure... but, everything really all [...]