When I have to stay indoors and the sun is shining and the trees are waving I feel like a little kid Watching my friends play I have absolutely always felt this way. And I was doing some more reflecting on what I wrote about yesterday, that maybe neurodiversity does fit for me, but at [...]
The sea holds wonders Above and below Horizons shift Separate worlds You come to know. I chose this photo today because I've been feeling off-balance. Likely, I'm not alone in this. Part of me is exceedingly grateful for the change of pace and another part of me is just completely unsure of how to [...]
Quarantine Day …32?
My dissertation defense date is set. I was agonizing over whether it would happen or not... and it will happen over Zoom. I can't help but be cynical about the timing, like, OF COURSE that would happen to me... such an anticlimactic finish to my PhD program... I won't get to stand at a podium [...]
A Heavy Heart
Today started off very poorly for me. I spoke with a very good friend of mine who resides in Belize. His wife is pregnant. He shared with me that he was told there are six ventilators in the entire country. Let that sink in. Six. That is a very sobering reality. I can't fathom it. [...]
Quarantine Day 21
I had such an eerie experience on my walk today. There were no cars, no breeze, and the birds fell silent for a bit. It felt as though time had stopped ... and this sensation of being alone enveloped me briefly. It was like, beyond fear, it was more like this visceral knowing of isolation. [...]
Quarantine Day 9
I actually went out of the house today because I am a mental health therapist, which is deemed "essential." I would agree. Especially now. I went to a deserted office to conduct telehealth sessions. The three that I had went pretty well, despite a few technology hiccups. It did kind of get to me-- going [...]
Quarantine Day 7 (for me)
This was part of my day today ... reading in the sunroom. I forced myself to take the day off- something I haven’t done in a while. And though I didn’t get the creative writing started that I wanted to, I felt better than I have in a long time. Just taking the day for [...]
Sometimes the sea is crystal clear And it's easy to be aware of the beauty around you. When it's murky And all the sand is kicked up from the turmoil that storms bring It can be harder to trust that beauty, peace, and presence Are still possible. But remember, the sea cleanses itself And [...]
Awake and Intentional
This is the first time in forever I feel like I’m awake and intentional. I’ve never been so excited for spring. It has become more and more apparent what is the real me versus what is trauma response. Nothing has been more freeing.
I read something today on a neurodivergent blog I follow/write for. It said that people with autism, particularly women, have spiritual experiences and intuitive abilities. I've always sort of felt this way, though I'm not sure if the autism label fits for me. I don't feel like labels matter... but experiences do. If you've been [...]