Welp.

Found out this week I won’t be teaching a class I spent hours preparing for due to enrollment issues. I know this isn’t an anomaly or personal but … it just touches on everything I’ve been working on lately and it doesn’t feel good. I hate feeling like I’ve wasted time that I could have [...]

A Moving Conversation

Most powerful conversations happen to me seemingly at random. I spoke with a colleague and friend today to pick her brain about getting tips for teaching an upcoming class. We somehow got into a conversation about exercise and how academia will allow you to work yourself ragged if you let it. I recalled seeing a [...]

Blogust 22

I somehow have survived my first week as a new professor during a pandemic. I was present for some of it, on autopilot for some of it, but I have to put some things in perspective. If I started this new venture even just a couple of years ago I am pretty sure I would [...]

Blogust 17 The Day Got Away From Me

It’s so hard to remain present when adjusting to a new job during a pandemic. You sometimes just go into auto pilot. But especially because of the field I’m in I should model good self care. I’m going to try to make a commitment to that. I did go on a walk today. I did [...]

Blogust 5

Calling all professors Calling all professors Especially the new ones--- Who feels overwhelmed about the Fall semester? *raises hand* I'm trying to remember that it's normal to be nervous as a new-ish professor. I'm trying to remember that teaching online is inherently stressful when you didn't plan to teach online. I'm trying to remember that [...]

I’ve absolutely had it today

As if teaching online isn't anxiety-inducing enough. My Internet was cutting in and out so I couldn't even lecture properly or have the discussions along the way that I wanted to. Thank God the Internet worked for the first bit while we were discussing articles. My anxiety is usually so well under control and managed, [...]

Quarantine Day 16

Looks like we’re getting another 30 days of this. It’s sobering, seeing the estimated projected death toll for the US with the current data. I don’t think I’ve ever felt quite so awestruck by something, in a bad way. I gave a guest lecture this evening, virtually, on sex addiction. I have been scheduled to [...]

Today was too much. Lol.

Too much angst. Excitement. Goodness. Just everything. Lol. I did pass my dissertation proposal defense. Was told I did a great job and my chair and mentor gave me this sticker for my laptop. Everyone seems to know I love the sea and it's critters. 🙂 Now just have to do the stats and discussion. [...]

High Functioning Anxiety While Teaching

The blog that I wrote this week for my friend's private practice could not have come at a better time, it's on high functioning anxiety. I'll link it when it becomes live. It's relevant for me today because I taught my first class of the semester. Though I think I was repetitive and second guessed [...]

Job Searching

before you've finished your dissertation can be so overwhelming. Am I serious about moving? Could I be happy in that town/state/region etc? Do the faculty have similar research interests to me? To what degree are they similar? Does that matter? Ugh.   I don't think I would mind adjuncting while I figure all of that [...]