I’ve absolutely had it today

As if teaching online isn't anxiety-inducing enough. My Internet was cutting in and out so I couldn't even lecture properly or have the discussions along the way that I wanted to. Thank God the Internet worked for the first bit while we were discussing articles. My anxiety is usually so well under control and managed, [...]

Quarantine Day 16

Looks like we’re getting another 30 days of this. It’s sobering, seeing the estimated projected death toll for the US with the current data. I don’t think I’ve ever felt quite so awestruck by something, in a bad way. I gave a guest lecture this evening, virtually, on sex addiction. I have been scheduled to [...]

Today was too much. Lol.

Too much angst. Excitement. Goodness. Just everything. Lol. I did pass my dissertation proposal defense. Was told I did a great job and my chair and mentor gave me this sticker for my laptop. Everyone seems to know I love the sea and it's critters. 🙂 Now just have to do the stats and discussion. [...]

High Functioning Anxiety While Teaching

The blog that I wrote this week for my friend's private practice could not have come at a better time, it's on high functioning anxiety. I'll link it when it becomes live. It's relevant for me today because I taught my first class of the semester. Though I think I was repetitive and second guessed [...]

Job Searching

before you've finished your dissertation can be so overwhelming. Am I serious about moving? Could I be happy in that town/state/region etc? Do the faculty have similar research interests to me? To what degree are they similar? Does that matter? Ugh.   I don't think I would mind adjuncting while I figure all of that [...]

Most Comfortable at a Distance

I can see the glowing lights I can see them every night Really not that far away I could be there in a day I wonder if you live there still I kind of think you always will If I tried, you'd probably be Hard to find. Teaching is such s humbling experience, especially when [...]

Wellness Wednesday

I'm leaving for Seattle in a few hours to present at a conference. I would have liked to have had more time to prepare, but it is what it is. Dissertation is such a lonely and isolating process, it's unreal. You do receive help from your committee and mentors for sure... but, everything really all [...]

Wellness Update

Teaching a five week class was much more grueling than expected, but I made it through. I promised myself I wouldn't do work today. And I haven't. And I won't. I went to Zumba with my mom then out to lunch and now I'm lounging on a glorious day in my backyard. I don't think [...]