Quarantine Day 21

I had such an eerie experience on my walk today. There were no cars, no breeze, and the birds fell silent for a bit. It felt as though time had stopped ... and this sensation of being alone enveloped me briefly. It was like, beyond fear, it was more like this visceral knowing of isolation. [...]

Quarantine Day 17

 I was a little bored today... well, that's an understatement. Working from home is getting to me more than I thought it would. Though I would normally work from home some days during the week, being forced to much of the time is wearing me down. Today I played with some makeup and made the [...]

Quarantine Day 16

Looks like we’re getting another 30 days of this. It’s sobering, seeing the estimated projected death toll for the US with the current data. I don’t think I’ve ever felt quite so awestruck by something, in a bad way. I gave a guest lecture this evening, virtually, on sex addiction. I have been scheduled to [...]

Quarantine Day 7 (for me)

This was part of my day today ... reading in the sunroom. I forced myself to take the day off- something I haven’t done in a while. And though I didn’t get the creative writing started that I wanted to, I felt better than I have in a long time. Just taking the day for [...]

Seascape Saturday

Uncertainty is temporary, as all things are. But the sea remains. And the avenues forward will become clear again. I want to preface this post with saying that I am not in any way trying to make light of the current COVID19 situation. It's terrifying. It's unprecedented. One person dying from it is too many. [...]

Faith in Humanity Restored

I tend to write about mental health, struggles, coping ... all of which I am passionate about. However, on Wednesday of this week I beheld two beautiful incidents in a coffee shop that made me really pause. These brief moments of human kindness and connection really helped restore something within me that's fights cynicism. It's [...]

It’s not often

That I'm at a loss for words, but even if I just bulletted everything that happened today for you as well as my thoughts...I'm not sure it would adequately convey everything. I think the best way to describe it is just a resignation to this old familiar unhealthy pattern I've been in with a few [...]

Toll of Emotional Abuse

This is something I could write a book about... seriously. And I think I've only just begun to deeply understand it. A lot of times when people are emotionally abused, they don't realize that it's happening. At first. They may feel terrible, but especially when the abuse occurs in childhood, it can be seen as [...]