Happy New Year

I’m starting this year out soft instead of strong. Yes, I have things that I want to work on this year, like more mindful eating and putting myself and my energy first. I am going to try hard not to lose sight of that, but I want to keep everything realistic and not overwhelming. I tend to put a lot on my to-do list each day, so I’m going to keep things to a manageable minimum, especially before the semester starts.

What have the highlights been in 2022? Maybe I’ll start with lows. lol There were certainly a lot of lows, especially early on. But. I learned a lot about myself and what I need/want out of life and how unbalanced and sick I can get when I feel stuck, unheard, and not having my needs met. My physical and mental health took a serious turn last Spring, but I don’t think I’ll be in a position to let that happen again.

The highlights were certainly deepening friendships, spending time in nature paddle boarding with friends and by myself, starting with a new therapist that I think connects better with me, playing with sea lions in the Galapagos, spending more intentional time dancing and improving my dance skills, standing up for myself, and unexpectedly finding someone I connect really well with.

I’m going to try to base all of my decisions and commitments this year on my energy levels. Do I have the energy for that? If not, if it’s not necessary for me to deplete myself, then I won’t.

In some ways I still feel like I’m recovering from a lot this year, but everyone has been so gracious with me when I’ve cancelled plans last minute or gone MIA and just wanted to be by myself. I think I just need to accept that I need a lot more alone time to regulate than most people and that’s okay. And if friendships end because of that, I have to choose myself first. I have seen what happens when I choose other people before myself… I ended up very close to hurting myself very badly (not suicidal, but just not taking care of myself so I passed out, fell, and got pretty banged up… could have been much worse). And I’ll likely have a scar from that fall for the rest of my life to remind me.

I’ll never do that again.

Vow to put yourself first in 2023 as well.

Much love



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