I try to allow myself to take credit for things I've done well, but it's hard to feel good about myself sometimes. I passed my comprehensive exams without needing revisions and defend them orally tomorrow. It's hard not to feel like the faculty went easy on me or something, but I'm trying. And after someone [...]
I still do not feel very well, and even when things are going well for me on the outside, it usually does not resonate on the inside. I have been focused on my PhD program, as I should be. I just passed my comprehensive exams without needing to make revisions and I won at $500 [...]
Not doing much better since my post last night, but I do try to hang on to the fact that there are some days that I do well and that when some things in my life straighten out over the next year or so I'll probably be better able to take care of myself. I [...]
I think I've recently realized just how much trauma affects every aspect of your life. Like, every aspect. Even when I'm feeling pretty good, I find myself looking for things that I should worry about or that I might have forgotten to pay attention to, almost as if my brain is like uncomfortable with peace. [...]
Today was not a good day, right from the very start. Right from the first words said to me this morning. It was a struggle to just do the bare minimum expected of me. I didn't want to be around anyone. I didn't want to go to class. Because of a lot of things in [...]
Comprehensive exams and dissertation proposal under way ... normally I would be completely out of whack with my chest hurting with so many things looming over my head. But, for whatever reason, I've learned to develop the mentality that it's just work. That is not to say that I don't care about doing a good [...]
Wednesdays have proven to be a crazy day for me (please excuse the late post)... especially because with my new IRB position, we often have meetings Wednesdays. Anyway, a male boss/mentor of mine recently shared with me when we were talking about our profession (counseling) that men often feel like they can open up more [...]
