There's security in only allowing others to see you at your best Made up well-dressed. But pale, sickly Lip bloodied Feels too raw, My image sullied. What could be better than to remain at a safe distance a curated image untouched. You might be anything exciting in their mind But too far away from their [...]
Seascape Saturday
It won't always be stormy in paradise.
The Great Gatsby Review
Tender is the Night stole my heart, so I had high expectations for this. I didn't end up liking Gatsby as much as I thought I would. I think I actually found it a bit boring to read about rich people who only speak about being rich and attractive with nothing better to do than [...]
Oscar Wilde said: ‘Each man kills the thing he loves.’ And it’s true. The mere possibility of getting what we want fills the soul of the ordinary person with guilt. I’m reading The Alchemist again. Every time I do I get something else from it, relevant to what I’m going through at the time. I [...]
I want to be barefoot
Wild women Seem to crave connectedness with the Earth. When I'm outside I feel Abundance. Love. Like rediscovering a friend that was always near but I had been unable to receive.
Beginning Over Again
And so with the sunshine and the great bursts of leaves growing on the trees, just as things grow in fast movies, I had that familiar conviction that life was beginning over again with the summer. The Great Gatsby What an interesting feeling: beginning over again. With some of my recent health issues I did [...]
A Memory
A memory popped up on my facebook today from 2016. I took a selfie in a bathroom mirror at a university after presenting at a conference. I drove from Pittsburgh to southern Illinois to present on my thesis by myself. It's been interesting reflecting on just how close I was to dropping out of undergrad [...]
Update/Free Write
I don't believe I've ever tried to so hard to heal myself. I can feel it in my body. I know what it needs, better food, more water, more movement... but also something deeper that I can only get without isolating myself. And that's to be really seen. Witnessed. In the fullness of myself. Getting [...]
Lunar Eclipse
Cream, peach, blood My shadow was cast upon the moon And I couldn't stay awake long enough to witness the darkness dissipate or see the source of light.
Yesterday was my last teaching day of the semester, and I wasn’t feeling well. I had an unexpected break and decided to treat myself to some Thai food before teaching at six. I don’t remember the last time I really went to eat somewhere alone so I was kind of nervous about feeling out of [...]
Eternal Ocean of Words 