Quarantine Day 19

Sun permeates trees, inviting Spring awakens dormant rootsLet it fill your lungs and spiritWith hope Lazy day today, though I did go on a walk and did a minimal amount of work. Fighting against cabin fever is so much easier when you can go outside and actually feel the sun warming your skin. I was fortunate [...]

It’s not often

That I'm at a loss for words, but even if I just bulletted everything that happened today for you as well as my thoughts...I'm not sure it would adequately convey everything. I think the best way to describe it is just a resignation to this old familiar unhealthy pattern I've been in with a few [...]

Toll of Emotional Abuse

This is something I could write a book about... seriously. And I think I've only just begun to deeply understand it. A lot of times when people are emotionally abused, they don't realize that it's happening. At first. They may feel terrible, but especially when the abuse occurs in childhood, it can be seen as [...]

High Functioning Anxiety While Teaching

The blog that I wrote this week for my friend's private practice could not have come at a better time, it's on high functioning anxiety. I'll link it when it becomes live. It's relevant for me today because I taught my first class of the semester. Though I think I was repetitive and second guessed [...]

Anxiety During the Holidays

Today was just one of those days that I tried really hard. Lifted. Went on a walk because it was gorgeous out. And my anxiety was still very, very bad most of the day. I made it through seeing my two clients but overall my anxiety just ended up being unbearable. I'm tired of my [...]

Trauma and Shrinking

Let's just start by saying relational trauma is a thing. And it can make connecting with people especially hard. I realize that certain tendencies within myself are trauma responses. My tendency to clean when I'm anxious and don't feel well. Why do kids who grow up in unstable environments feel the need to be perfect [...]

Review of Joker by a Mental Health Professional [Spoiler Alert]

I have so much to say about this film and I'm not sure I can adequately convey how much it moved me. It is without a doubt one of the best films I have ever seen. You could just take out all the bits related to "super heroes" and that whole franchise and it would [...]

Peace

That's really all I want. Nothing has been reinforced more in 2019 for me than that. I just want to live in a tension free environment and be around people who are transparent. My experiences growing up definitely taught me that money can get you a lot of things, but it can't give you peace. [...]